Wednesday, May 5, 2010


This evening I was bent over my garden planting the first batch of Annuals; bare knees plunged into the soil. William was propped up in his gait trainer.....legs dangling and head bowed. Gentle warm drops of rain began to fall on us. As I tilted my head back to catch a drop I noticed my son doing the same; letting the rain trickle to his chin. He smiled and something in me sparked; I was transported....
nights in college, breaking from studying and walking in the rain. Alone or with someone but always feeling so fresh, alert, and invigorated.
and now...... I sometimes feel that I am trapped on auto pilot; have I become comfortably numb? Although I love being a mother and watching my children grow and experience new things.........I need to feel alive and to see the beauty I used to see. I have become so busy, so sleep deprived, so worried, so so so so so ... that I sometimes fail to enjoy the simple things in life. To plant flowers in the rain and feel
more than just...
to survive
but to truly


  1. I used to take walks in the rain too. :) Next time it pours, lets make a date to meet up somewhere and take a walk!!! Can't wait to see how your garden grows. :)

  2. Erin... I love to read what you write! About walking or working in the rain I must say, I need an umbrella... I just don't like getting my head wet :-)
    Keep writing because you have a beautiful way with words! Aunt Sue