Something Has Come Between Us

Sometimes I imagine myself many years down the road as an old woman alone in a houseful of books. My daughter will be grown and having adventures of her own, my son may still be living with me but my husband will have left me. Once he realizes the true love of my life this will surely be the case.

I think he already has an inkling that something has come between us. Yes, I admit when the children and my husband are nestled in their beds fast asleep I am with "the other love of my life." Who can blame me. When the day is done and I have wholly and completely given myself to my children, my home, and my husband who wouldn't crave a little adventure. Perhaps a little action, romance, laughter, and even a little murder mystery......

Yes, I love my husband. Yet, when he says to me, " Erin, come to bed" I find myself looking to that book thrown on the couch that I have abandoned for way to long....... and besides I know he will be asleep in less than ten minutes. So in the end I choose my books. Actually, I just had an idea while writing this little blurb. So here it is; I pretend to go to sleep with Wayne and as soon as he falls asleep I sneak out of bed and go to my books!!!! Then after a few precious hours of reading I will return to bed because lets face it even scandalous ladies such as myself need sleep ;-) Aha, its the perfect plan. Maybe now I can picture myself as an old woman in a cozy home with marvelous wall to wall bookshelves, a gas fireplace warmly glowing, a glass of whiskey in hand AND a handsome hubby rubbing my tired feet ;-)

* No I don't drink whiskey; but surely by old age I will. Its family tradition ;-) *

Peek-a-boo I HEAR you

William is listening very intently, he knows Ella is near...............
William hears Ella enter the room as she is roaring like a lion.....LOL
William coo's for Ella to come back; apparently he is enjoying the game! He is even trying to look in the right direction! This is something their mommy loves to see :-)

So Big!

My baby boy is getting so big! Sometimes it is easy to miss how much progress he has made because he is always with his twin sister who is typically developing. Even as his mom I sometimes overlook all that he has done. Just last week someone dear to me said, " Erin, you are underestimating him." At first I was a little taken back and angry but soon realized that she was right. Although my love for him is strong I saw that my expectations for him were very low. I suppose it was a sort of self-defense mechanism that I unconsciously used. Although his progress is slow he IS moving forward when seizures are kept under decent control; which is always a struggle. Just last week William was almost rolling for his Physical therapist. She placed her hands on the muscles he needed to use and gave a little pressure to activate them. Then slowly very slowly he rolled without being directly manipulated!!!!! This is HUGE for William. It really opened my eyes to seeing what my son can do. Not only has he begun to use his muscles to reach and roll but also has been eating like a champ and using his vision more. This morning I noticed that he was holding his hand in front of his face longer than usual. At first it seemed like he was itching his nose, which he does often, but then he just held it there and watched it!! He was looking at his own hand. For a child with a cortical vision impairment this is also HUGE!! He is also starting to feel his diaper when I change him. Learning to use his hands to explore his environment has been a tremendous accomplishment.

I could write a few more paragraphs on how proud I am of my son! He is such an amazing boy that is getting big so fast. I hope others can see the seemingly small things he can do and realize just how huge those accomplishments are. Way to go William!!!